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Yoga, brainstorming, family time, bundt pan, interview

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Wow, I actually got to yoga twice this week! That hasn’t happened in a long time. Random times and random classes, but both good in their own way.

About all I accomplished today besides that, is some grocery shopping, and meeting with an old acquaintance about her fundraising ideas and reviving a great animal issues magazine she used to produce. It was nice to brainstorm together. Bonus: She said she barely recognized me and that I looked great! She hadn’t seen me in about 6 years and even though it didn’t seem very drastic to me, I gradually lost quite a bit of weight after becoming vegetarian then vegan, and I guess it shows.

Tonight, we hung out as a family, made pizzas, made pineapple upside down cake in the new bundt pan, and watched some Big Bang Season 5. I had planned to work on more show notes, but I guess that will have to wait until tomorrow. Ooh, now we can make this bundt cake recipe.

This weekend, in addition to show notes and schoolwork, I’m going to read a good portion of Jenny Brown’s The Lucky Ones, since we’ve set up an interview with her for next week. We met Jenny last year and she was so friendly and funny—I can’t wait to talk with her again.

Head-on

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I’ve tackled this week head-on: an entire week of anti-procrastination. So far, so good, but I’m getting a little tired because when I’m on—I’m on. I have a hard time relaxing, doing one thing at a time without 20 other to-dos’s running through my head. Good thing tomorrow is Friday.

Great yoga class today. I’ve really slacked on the yoga this summer and have not gone regularly. But today I made it to a 9:15 and one of my favorite instructors was the sub! So that was great, although it was a lot of work since I’m pretty out of shape. But hey, I did a headstand against the wall, which was fun.

Lots of things to think about this week. I’m considering a Humane Education masters program for the fall, so I’m doing fact finding there. I’m working on purchasing some software and setting aside some regular time to ramp up my WordPress skills and consulting, and I’m also putting together some SharePoint training materials. Meetings have been scheduled. Hoping good things will come.

The kids came back from their mom’s yesterday. I was glad to have the 5 days to get myself organized and motivated again. I love them and am glad they’re back, but they take so much mental energy and time away from concentration, even when I’ve asked them not to bug me. Either they interrupt me anyway, or they walk on exaggerated eggshells, which is just as annoying. I’m learning ways to juggle it and to identify when I just need to take my laptop and work elsewhere for a few hours. Really wish I had a home office with a door, though.

Bad yogatude

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I just finished up several hours of consulting work. I would have rather done it during the week, but it was the kind of thing that needed to be done after hours, when nobody was accessing the system. Fortunately, all went as planned. While waiting for things to download and/or install, I was able to do a little news research for the next show too. All while hanging out with my step-son and the hub as they watched some Netflix.

I’m beginning to realize just how sore I am from yoga today. I’ve been going to the fitness center frequently, but not regularly, if that makes any sense. The yoga classes are not really in a convenient schedule – there is generally one every day around 9:15, for instance, but the type of class can vary from relaxation yoga to power vinyasa, and the teachers vary too. It’s hard to get into any type of M-W-F or T-Th schedule there. I can’t imagine why they do it like that.

So today, I thought I was going to a vinyasa class with a teacher that I like and have had a couple of times, but there was a sub. And I was tired and struggling through the entire class. Do you every have a teacher who wants you to hold every pose forever and you feel like they’ll never move on to the next thing? I can understand in a restorative or relaxation class, but in a vinyasa class I expect to well, keep moving. But honestly, we did move a lot, we just held the poses long in between. Some days I just have a bad yoga attitude. And I think my body is tired, because she worked us hard.

It’s good that I went to yoga today, for a number of reasons:  One being that tomorrow I can sleep in.

That pesky lung thing

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I thought my asthma symptoms had finally gotten better after getting the flu over a month ago. I had a few days without the inhaler: I used it once before working out the other day, but in general have gotten by without. But then this week we spent a few days in an alternate studio room using Skype to record and edit interviews—and there was this fresh cigarette smell insidiously seeping through the ramshackle walls of the old building. The station borrows space in the back of a decrepit school; the front is the Boys and Girls club. This is late at night, so I think somebody in maintenance is smoking in one of the utility rooms. It sucks, and there is nothing I can do about it. Unless I haul an air filter down there. Or buy recording equipment for home.

It must have accumulated over a couple of nights, because by this afternoon I was feeling pretty tight. By the time I went with my step-daughter to yoga, I felt like I needed to take my inhaler before the class. And then I felt super dizzy a couple of times, which was weird. It could be the effects of the inhaler, or maybe not being able to breathe fully. Tonight I feel that hand squeezing around my chest again.

Looking back at blog posts, I can see that I had lung issues around the same time last year—maybe just a few weeks later than this year. Hmm. Wonder if there is something environmental at this time of year that triggers it or makes it worse—allergies?

I’m officially sick of asthma. Bleh. And I’m not sure what to do about it. I eat right. I supplement as recommended. I exercise. I do yoga.  I get sleep. Any suggestions?

Anti-procrastination Monday

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Today, instead of anti-procrastination Wednesday (Flylady), I had an anti-procrastination Monday. Still didn’t get as much accomplished as I wanted, but I did pretty good:

  • Got the twins all registered for this session’s extra curricular activities: Track, Rock Band, Choir, Spanish. {2 forms, 3 conversations in addition to discussing with the twins.} Scholarships plus volunteering will pay for these.
  • Posted some social media about Wednesday’s SharePoint user group meeting.
  • Called to get a request in for a VegNet booth for Earth Day.
  • Set up a radio interview, including prepping questions.
  • Talked to the station about underwriting, then talked to a natural products company that wants to sponsor our radio show. Connected the two.
  • Went to my first yoga class in several weeks. {Restorative, because I didn’t know how much I could handle after being sick and with the asthma issues I’m having: I did fine.}
  • Did more news research for the show.
  • Set up a time for a job interview later in the week (Woot!)
  • Purchased, downloaded, and installed tax software.

What is that irritating driver who doesn’t know how to drive in a roundabout teaching me?

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My inner voice was really trying to convince me to go back to sleep this morning, but I successfully ignored it and got up anyway for yoga. I had a nice hour of waking up and having some tea and oatmeal before leaving. I like the teacher on Saturday mornings. She has a great calming and thoughtful spirit about her, and she has a theme for each class that she discusses at the beginning, before we get going, and then comes back to throughout the session.

The only problem is that I’m not the only one who likes her class—it is very overcrowded and if anybody gets there on time or later, people have to keep moving their mats to accommodate. Often, we’re bumping into one another with our arms to the sides, or sometimes with the person in front or behind us. I think I’ve made it to the Saturday class 4 times (3 with this teacher, once with a sub), and every time I’ve arrived too late to get a decent spot. Today, I was determined to get there 15 minutes early. But I didn’t. And I was crammed up in the corner and next to the medicine balls, which I kept hitting with my left arm. {At least I got a spot. Thursday I arrived just about on time, or maybe a minute or so late to a different class, and I didn’t end up going in because I couldn’t see one spot where I could possibly squeeze in.}

And yet, I still enjoyed the class and was very glad that I went. Something I’ve been working on lately is coping with things that irritate me. For instance, starting yoga back up again after an absence has been challenging physically and mentally. Sometimes I find myself getting irritated that I’m not familiar with a pose, or that the teacher is not explaining it more fully. Or we are going too fast. Or that my thighs are on fire and we’re doing yet another warrior sequence. But through yoga I’m learning to take that irritation—recognize it—and accept that it is there to teach me patience, or acceptance. Then set it aside. In my everyday life, there are, of course, many things that irritate me. But now my first thought is, recognize it— accept what it is there to teach me, and then set it aside. Does this work miracles in all situations? No. But it’s a start.

Big bad unemployment

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I guess it’s OK to talk about this now: Some weeks ago, I lost my consulting job of 5.5 years, when I was laid off due to “lack of work.” I worked for my brother: He gave me one week of notice. The company had been struggling for some time.

I haven’t said anything about it outright on this blog, because for a while we didn’t want the kids to know. We didn’t want them to worry that they had just moved here and that we wouldn’t be able to take care of them. It was a difficult secret to keep. Even now, I’m worried that I’ll freak somebody out by saying the wrong thing.

It was very upsetting, as the timing could hardly have been worse, with my hubby having been unemployed for a couple of years now, and three children moving in. Let’s just say these past couple of months have been the most stressful in probably the last 7 or 8 years. I have so much riding on my shoulders.

In a lot of ways, it’s a good thing. It will probably be a great thing. I was in a job situation that was not right for me, and had not been for quite some time. I had tried to find other work, especially last year. But several promising opportunities came very close to coming through, only to  fall through at the last minute. One in particular crashed horribly to the ground only hours after I was promised the job. That, and some negative experiences with work, really took a toll on my confidence in 2011.

And now I’m in a situation, where, like so many other people, I’m looking, under duress. Our house is under water, we’re stuck at a relatively high interest rate. We have no savings, except for some quickly dwindling vacation pay. We have lots of extra expenses. We are able to get unemployment, which works out to be about $1000 less per month than we were previously bringing in. Before tax. And we were already struggling. We also lost our insurance, but were able to get some short-term major medical, and prescriptions aren’t too much more than they were with insurance. Fortunately, the kids have insurance through Oregon Health Plan. And we are able see the doctor if we need to – there’s a medical clinic in town that has a sliding scale. I’m able to see the vegan Nurse Practitioner I wanted to see for $11 less than the copay I paid when I was insured!

Of course, this is a great time to reassess, to figure out what type of work I can really be happy doing. To see which skills I want to ramp up, and maybe which ones to toss. To try new things. So many directions to go! Should I concentrate on our design and IT consulting business? Should I spend all my free time networking, emailing resumes, trolling the IT job boards? Or should I be concentrating on new skill-sets like WordPress dev and Ruby on Rails? How will I keep my SharePoint skills sharp with little access to dev servers or software? How can I leverage my nonprofit skills? Could I start a vegan-based business or nonprofit? Will I get desperate and take a job that doesn’t seem like a good fit experience-wise or financially? What happens when we can’t pay the mortgage?

A lot of my time these past few weeks has been wrapped up in contingency planning. Swallowing pride, asking for help. The schools and the community have really stepped up, and for that we are very grateful. There are a lot of caring people here, and some good social programs. Relatives on the kids’ side have also helped where they can. Just today, we finally got into a mortgage assistance program that was a huge pain in the ass to apply for. At least we are in enough that we’ll be able to submit the paperwork. I’m sure it will take a few months to come through, if it does at all, and hopefully I’ll have a job by then. But we have to think ahead. What if?

Luckily, a lot of the shock of losing my job and of suddenly becoming a full-time parent has worn off by now. Most days I’m able to think clearly. To appreciate what I have. To plan ahead as much as is possible. I’m so grateful that we were able to get a deal at the community center. Yoga is saving my sanity right now. It’s my major stress relief  and what is keeping my lungs strong and healthy. I’m going to go check the schedule for tomorrow.