Dear current-past self, love future-current self


reflect on this year and manifest what’s next

Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?)

Dear Current (Past) Year 2010 Self,

Five-years-in-the-future Self here. Just so you know, I’m writing to give you some facetious gimmicky advice. As if there is any way that you can be warned of what’s coming any more than I can go back and change the past. I still like SciFi and all, but this is real life, not some 15-year-old feel-good fantasy. If I could talk to you over short-wave radio or had a freakin’ time machine we wouldn’t be having this conversation. And besides, I’m not your mom and I’m not going to tell you what to do. Except that maybe now would be the time to get your shit together. Get your ducks in a row. Explore some new creative endeavors. Because crazy things are coming. And you should enjoy the madness. You know, there’s going to be some more heartache and sacrifice involved. But I think you can already see that coming, and clearly, you can handle it. Hey, and keep eating that vegan diet and getting off your ass once in a while—that’s really helping us out.

Oh, and by the way, get pregnant. This really is your last chance. Seriously. Duh.

Dear Past Year 2000 Self,

OK, so here’s the deal. 2001 is going to suck, and there’s nothing you can do about. You’re going to be tested like you’ve never been before. You’re going to lose your beloved cat to a horrible freak accident while you’re away camping in the Mojave desert with a class of biology students, most of whom you barely know, and your jerk husband is going to leave you shortly thereafter. You’re going to feel very stuck. In California, in life. But know this—you’re way stronger than you think you are. You’ll figure it out and make the decisions you need to at your own pace.

You might consider toughing it out in Cali, at least long enough to take advantage of the internship at the Sea Lion Cognition lab, because if you don’t you’ll always regret it. If you can’t work it out, I understand. You’re probably not going to listen to anything I have to say, anyway, and I know you’ll be very stressed out. But at least make peace with the decision then. Also, after a little time to regroup, deal with it all right away—the divorce, the business, the finances, the taxes. Get out of it and go on. Otherwise, years of your life will be tied up in untangling the mess which has been hanging over your head. Trust me, this stuff doesn’t magically resolve itself over time.

And things will look up again. You have so much love in your future. Love that will help you through the roughest of times. And along with the love, you’ll find a new best friend, a new life, a new house, and a new series of careers, all in your old childhood stomping grounds that you swore you’d never move back to.

Oh, and by the way, you’re going to be broke for the next ten years. So enjoy it while you can.

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